I have been thinking about lot of crazy things... A LOT... crazies one is moving to somewhere I have never lived before... I don't know why it is such a crazy thought, but it just speaks to me. I really want to live near beach.. Near water, or complete opposite is somewhere in mountains- in a log house... Just minding my own business. But still.. near lake, quiet , still... Just silence... ;) Big bear would not be such a bad idea....
I wish people would stop telling me what to do... YES, advise me or guide me, but please , don't tell me what to do.... Tell me you are here for me, tell me I will get hurt... But don't tell me what to do...... You are not paying my bills, you are not waking up every morning in my bed, and you are not definitely living in my skin. You live close to my heart, and there are only few of you whose Advice I would take... And you know who you are...
In this blog I write down my good thoughts and my bad thoughts... SOme days I am frustrated and other days I am ready to take the world.. Some days I feel handy capped, and maybe few days after I feel like a rock star... We all have our days...
Past few weeks have been interesting , and past couple of weeks have been hard. ANd valentines day approaching, and memories of kids being young and enjoying it.. is hitting hard again, and the fact... I don't think I have had valentines date for years... So valentines day for me is cursed...
It will be me most likely babysitting kids.. then coming home, making me something yummy to eat... and then going to bed Just like every other day.
I tell myself every day... Treat yourself well Gurrl... And I am doing it. As horrible as some people have treated me... I have to forgive them. .... sooner the better.... and I have to forgive myself for allowing someone to treat me in a ill mannered way. .
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it."...
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